Too much indifference

I have suffered so much I think. I'm emotionally and physically
battered. There's emotional blackmail already. Can you imagine saying,
"I love you" and not getting any response? I usually get the reponse,
"sige na..." My partner always cuts the conversation once I say I love
you.

I'm on bed while I post this entry. Earlier, I can't help but cry.
I've forced myself to cry but to no avail. I just can't help it
anymore. I need a different life. I want to start anew but don't know
how. I would like to quit this phase. I hate this!

Help. Please, someone help me.